a timeless face will haunt you...

unwinding

2006-12-20T18:22:02Z

so this semester is over.
done.
i've never been so relieved.
i slept until 11am this morning.
haven't done that in a lllong time.
and i know that i did all that i could this semester.
i know that i definitly have an A in history.
i got a C in biology, but i don't know what i got in Lab, and i'm pretty sure that factors in, so maybe i'll turn out with a C+.
hey, that was the shittiest, most stressful class of the semester...
i am NO science major.
not even close, not even a little, not even on a good day.
so as long as i have a C and it transfers, that is fine with me.
and i'm expecting B's in my other two classes.
i'm happy with it.

moving out of my house has kicked my ass into drive i think.
it's good.
i actually spent hours on homework and studying this semester.
which is something that i used to never do...
and i would scrape by with all C's and a B or an A here or there.
i think it's mostly to do with how i have so much anxiety about growing older.
getting married, buying a house, having children.
i just want to be able to do all those things with confidence, and not feel like i'm being held back by money problems or whatever.
i want to have a good job. that i like. and that allows me to aid in taking care of my family.
whenever that may be.

but anywayyyy.

sabrina is coming with john and the baaaaaabers.
i'm so excited to play with myles.
they're staying with us for at least one night.
if they need to stay two that's fine too.
ugh i am so excited. rrrrrreally.
myles looks sososo cute.
i want him to know who i am though.
maybe he will eventually.

so i got a new job i think.
tina's cousin owns a pizzeria/restaurant in bayshore.
aaand she got me a job there.
he called and told me to come in tonight at 4 to train.
i hope it's decent money...
and i hope i like it.
tina already told me though that if it's not what i'm looking for to not be worried about not taking the job.
i wouldn't want to be disrespectful to her, or her family.

so cause i'm bored...
if i could have the perfect rich girl xmas...
i would want this stuff:

it's a whole lot of pictures, a whole lot.

2006-07-28T21:49:54Z

i just feel like posting pictures of my friends cause i love them a lot...
and i hate it when people die.
i really really hate it.
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too good for this world. rip donna <333333

i'm a little sappy. and sad.
but i love my friends. for sure.

bl00dy_murder @ 2005-09-06T11:26:00

2005-09-06T15:28:09Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME ! ♥

public because i probably want everyone to do it.

2005-04-30T22:07:59Z

01. Reply with your name and I will write something about you.
02. I will then tell what song/movie remind me of you.
03. If I were to apply an o'clock to you, it would be...
04. I will try to name a single word that best describes you.
05. I'll tell you the most memorable moment I've had with you.
06. I will tell you what animal you remind me of.
07. I'll then tell you something that I've always wondered about you.
08. Put this in your journal.

bl00dy_murder @ 2005-03-14T18:00:00

2005-03-14T23:17:01Z

Thirteen random things you like:
1. my sidekick II
2. shopping
3. aqua teen
4. eye make up
5. green olives
6. the foot long dream
7. vodka cranberry and orange juice
8. being irish
9. my boyfriend
10. the murder hearts <3
11. jettas
12. popping pimples
13. plucking my boyfriends eyebrows

Twelve good movies:
1. alice in wonderland
2. willy wonka
3. the wizard of oz
4. fight club
5. old school
6. anchorman
7. garden state
8. eternal sunshine
9. the ring ha
10. edward scissorhands
11. peter pan
12. the royal tanenbaums

Eleven good bands/artists:
1. denali
2. anterrabae.xo
3. mew
4. ace of base
5. azure ray
6. the blood brothers
7. dead to fall
8. cursive
9. bjork
10. the cure
11. blink 182 (rip, i love you bros. ha)

Ten things about you ... physically:
1. 5 foot 2 if i stand up straight.
2. 34D, i hate big boobs forever.
3. size 7 foot. 5 in boys.
4. big forehead, constantly covered up by bangs.
5. i used to have gorgeous teeth, now they are getting crooked again. fuck.
6. fat, seriously.
7. blue eyes.
8. i have little hands and wrists.
9. tattoos
10. freckles

Nine good friends: (not in any particular order at all)
1. joseph spagna
2. ricky jo jiminez
3. kattie hawkins
4. sarah jordan
5. amanda candilloro
6. caitlin coullier
7. jen russell
8. niki tamburello
9. daniel terr
I WANT TEN! 10. denise debo :]

Seven favorite drinks:
1. arizona sweet tea
2. arizona 1/2 iced tea 1/2 lemonade
3. diet dr. pepper
4. light beer
5. vodka with juice
6. 1/2 french vanilla cappuccino and 1/2 coffee
7. red and pink at ricks house

Six Things that annoy you:
1. my ex boyfriends friends
2. my sleeping habits
3. being fat
4. liars
5. bad drivers
6. people who complain allllll the time. [i mean i complain, probably even a lot but i usually have a lot more to talk about then just complaints alllllllll night long.]

Five things you touch everyday:
1. my face
2. my sidekick
3. my ipod
4. my teeth
5. my bag

Four shows you watch:
1. extreme home makeover
2. desperate housewives
3. sex and the city
4. real world/road rules challenge

Three things you look for in a girl/guy:
1. mouth
2. sneakers [i will not date a boy who wears workboots or lugz thank you very much]
3. humor

Two things you hate:
1. ketchup
2. having to shave my legs

One thing/person you love:
1. clean underwear right out of the dryer <3

bl00dy_murder @ 2004-12-20T18:23:00

2004-12-20T23:19:54Z

i finally have a new cell phone...
the t-mobile sidekick II... hells yeah.

new number: 631.790.1641

calllll meeee <333

west philadelphia born and raised.....

2004-11-26T03:12:34Z

public entry for my cousins to see... pictures from my uncle jimmy's in philly... and pictures of my newest cousin's christening... if you know my family, you know that we are all absolutely crazy when we are forced to spend overnight time with eachother. it's awesome and...

me and kimby on our way. me driving, early in the morning with an awful hang over. HAWT.

my grandpa... siked on a HUGE glass of guiness. uh yeah. we're irish. and we love it.

my cousin danielle.... fucking around with some crazy italian biscuit??

so someone's sleeping bag had a zip-off pillow attachment.... we took it off and pretended that i was j-lo. holler.

disregard my disgusting face.... hours of driving with a hang over will lead to looking like this.

pop that pop that jiggle that fat.... don't stop get it till ya clothes get wet!

i came in from smoking a cigarette and we realized that my grandma thought it would be wayyyy funnier if she did it too. uh yeah, she was right.

holy crap.

grandma.... removing the apparatus.

so my cousin becky had a baby.... kailyn.... she's sleeping on my granfather. adorable.

we are the coolest cousin's ever. [jessie, danielle, kim, and me being grosso.]

my cousin jessie holding her first niece. aww how sweet.

different lighting oooo.

so this little girl was adorable. i don't remember her name and i'm not related to her at all.. but she was dancing like she had shit in her pants and it was hysterical. so i took a picture cause i'm lame!

this is jack. he liked me a lot. he told me that he likes my 'earring' [my monroe] cause it's shiny. he was cute... and he stood next to this house decoration and pretended he was one too. haha. it was cute.

so that's that. me and the fam. we're fucken nuts. <33333

bl00dy_murder @ 2004-11-08T14:20:00

2004-11-08T19:23:46Z

and there on the stairs,
standing there,
arm outstretched,
point and glare,
watching the love,
fall to our feet,
into the floor to disappear.

We’re finding fault,
when you kissed her
or you slept with him,
or you didn’t care…

now it all breaks,
disintegrates.
Well this is the last thing I’ll take
cause'I can’t face you now.

This is the end, there’s nothing to keep.
This is the end of you and me.
As the ice comes down it’s the end,
as the lies come out it’s the end,
as the tears flow out it’s the end.
it's the end of you and me,

so we’ll look out on the lake
and we see the white light.
I said it was gold.
It should have been gold.
Then maybe all the crazy things you said
would have a meaning,
but this thing we have made it can't stop,
it won't stop… cause' I can’t face you now.
Take your troubles solo, this is the end of you and me.
-appleseed cast

one last apology.
all i can say is that i hope it stops hurting soon.

heaven only knows what you meant to me.

bl00dy_murder @ 2004-10-28T00:44:00

2004-10-28T04:41:50Z

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